Welcome to my world...
tatoeba kurushii kyou da to shite mo
kinou no kizu o nokoshite ite mo
shinjitai kokoro hodo ite yukere to
umare kawaru koto wa dekinai yo
dakedo kawatte wa ikeru kara
let's stay together, itsu mo
for instance, even if today is painful
and yesterday's wounds remain
I want to believe that I can free my heart and go on
I cannot be reborn
but I can change as I go on, so
let's stay together always
from 'For Fruits Basket', OP Theme from Fruits Basket
Name: Waffle
Age: 18
Location: Texas
Hobbies: Writing, Reading, Anime, Manga, Drawing, RPGs
Favorite Anime: Fruits Basket, Escaflowne, .hack//SIGN, Samurai Deeper Kyo, Yami no Matsuei
Favorite Games: Golden Sun: The Lost Age, Suikoden Games, .hack games, Fire Emblem, Kingdom Hearts, StarCraft, WarCraft, Neverwinter Nights
Favorite Band: Linkin Park
Favorite Quote: "And now, to unleash screaming temporal DOOM!"
Sometimes I wonder...
...but then I stop.
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10.13.2004
I had a weird dream last night.
What's weirder is that I desperately wish it was true.
For some reason, I was talking to some guy that I don't even know on the phone. He probably doesn't exist, I never heard a name. For some reason he was telling me his problems, and I was offering him as much advice as I could...
However, he seemed quite grateful, and after talking for a bit, I realized he was a really nice guy. For some reason, time seems fuzzy, but he came to visit me and thank me, and, being somewhat shy, gave me a letter that said he found me quite nice and would like to go out with me.
I agreed. It was a nice hug...
I'm just so weird. XD
Posted at 1:25:10 pm by wafflegirl
10.8.2004
I know that I really shouldn't post things like this, I'll only get bitched at by people and told things I already know. Yet, writing it down makes me feel better, helps me see past my tears, so please just allow me this little thing.
I'm a failure, again and again--I made a 69 on a math test. That's not so bad, some may say, but I need to keep my grades up because of scholarships. I'm going to study harder and do better, it's the only option.
This makes me think of other things though. The way my friends...my real-life guy friends would tease me and make fun of me if I tell them how I did, when I was pretty sure I did okay, at least. I've had reassurances that the rest of the tests probably won't be as hard. I hope they're not.
I'm going to change my major, though--I never wanted to be a Range Manager, or whatever the hell you are with the major I am right now. I want to write, I want to talk about agriculture. I want to go into Agricultural Communications, and a minor or somethin gin English, so that I can write on the side. Writing is my passion. Games are my passion. Agriculture is a very important thing to me. But the major I have right now is just not what I want to do.
I guess it's not fair to myself to keep hiding behind lies. I did this major so that I could get a scholarship, a small scholarship at that. I don't know if it's worth it. I don't think it is. I'm going to do better and work harder from here on out. Because I have no other choice.
Posted at 3:08:58 pm by wafflegirl
9.27.2004
I'm tired.
Posted at 11:48:25 pm by wafflegirl
9.17.2004
My shrubbery caught fire and told me to do this
[ mood: cheerful ]
...which is very scary since I don't have a shrubbery (see title).
My roommate moved out! *wah* Well, it wasn't because of me ^^* One of her friends had a very typical 'Sorority Girl' roommate--the blonde hair, constant nights out for sex or whoever knows what, not showing up till noon the next day and not going to classes. Said friend-of-roommate moved to a room in our hall, and my roommate decided to move in with her.
They're both rather more social than me, so the whole thing actually works out quite well. In addition, I get a room to myself! w00tzor!
Rei, this means you can spend the night now ^^*
Gackt's on Japan-A-Radio! *cranks it*
I'm going home for the weekend, but I'll be back Sunday. I have three friggen tests next week, two on the same day. Oh, and a web quiz I gotta do.
Need a laugh? Check out what my Chemistry professor said. We were talking about the elements, and he brought up a slide with pictures of pure Sodium reacting to water by burning. He said 'Pure sodium reacts to water by actually becoming hot enough to catch on fire. This is a reaction I am intimately familiar with, and that's not necessarily a good thing. All I'll say is when you've got some dishes with a little sodium left in them, dump in some acetone, (Kori's note: acetone is highly flammable, for those who don't know; many nail-polish removers contain it) then turn on the water...the sodium catches fire, the acetone catches fire, and...*points at self* Jess catches fire. I'm actually known around the lab for starting fires, then putting them out before anybody notices.'
Right on!
Oooh, this means I can get more posters to put up...well, I'm going to leave shortly and I need to do a little more cleaning, so, later everybody!
Posted at 4:02:46 pm by wafflegirl
9.14.2004
[ mood: confused ]
Please refer to blog title. No, really.
I guess I'm not a robot. I guess I'm an ordinary human being that's too much of a killjoy and way too pessimistic.
I guess I guess I guess.
I really hope that I'm not chemically depressed. I don't want to have to take drugs. To me, if I take drugs, that seems like I'm ... like I'm giving up. There has to be a way for me to be happy.
I can't accept that I've fallen into a routine. Or rather, that even if I have, I can't get out of it.
I'm trying...I'm really trying.
I don't know why I hole everything up. Where I beat myself up and let others beat me up. Where I smother everything that comes my way.
I have many reasons to be happy.
I have many reasons to be happy...
Posted at 11:27:14 pm by wafflegirl
9.6.2004
the tragically pizza-scented truth
[ mood : tired/blank ]
...is that very few people care about this little robot.
I guess it shouldn't bug me. I guess I should have known.
It shouldn't, but...it still kinda does.
Posted at 7:37:09 pm by wafflegirl
9.5.2004
[ mood: sad ]
The title of this blog describes my current thoughts.
Sure, I may not truly believe that I am asexual or whatever, but the more and more I analyse my behavior, the more and more I...
I mean, I'm just so...inconsequentially uncute. I've got acne, I'm slightly chunky about the middle, I'm a weakling, and I tend to spout Gir quotes and sing DDR songs. I am, in a word, lame. I can't flirt either. And when I talk to guys, they usually notice a pretty girl and start ogling/talking to her instead.
Le sigh, I guess. My guy friends all just treat me like a guy. Or, perhaps, like a robot. Perhaps this is why Gir is my hero. If they're going to treat me as the asexual being I seem to be turning into, I see no reason to behave in a typical human manner. Clinging, tugging on shirt hems, and screaming 'LET'S MAKE BISCUITS' seems far more applicable to my frazzled mind than actually being a nice and pleasant human being.
...somebody help me.
Posted at 10:02:59 pm by wafflegirl
8.30.2004
[ mood: blank ]
Had my first day of classes today. it wasn't bad, but I had five, and I'm on a big campus.
I started the day with Intro to Soil Science, where the professor let us go early (about 30 minutes after class started). He seemed pretty cool. Then I had Intro to Wildlife Management, which is taught by a TA who's really cool.
I then had a seminar, which is taught by somebody with an accent I can barely make out. Hopefully it won't be too much trouble. I then had math class, where the professor let us off early, and Intro to Soil Science lab, where we textured soils.
All in all, not a bad day. Just very tiring. I think I'll collapse now.
Posted at 6:11:31 pm by wafflegirl
8.25.2004
[ mood: sleepy ]
I guess I better go pace out my classes today. I was waiting for a friend to call so I could go with him, but he hasn't yet. *sigh*
In other news, DDR rocks! Went to the mall and played it quite a bit yesterday. I whooped ass on all my friends, but that's not saying much, because we *all* suck. XD
I love this high-speed internet...ooh! Homestar Runner!
That's all for now.
Posted at 10:15:43 am by wafflegirl
8.24.2004
[ mood: hyper ]
Yeah, I'm moved in to college now! Woo-hoo! I also reformatted my blog.
This isn't going to be a very long entry, I just thought I'd share that with everybody.
Stay cool, everyone~~!
Posted at 4:00:30 pm by wafflegirl
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